The Script , that wonderful music group, with their powerful songs about romance and heartbreak have resonated deeply with my personal journey. I have progressed so much, in moving pass the heartbreak of the break up of a relationship, but there are times when emotions get the best of me. My counselor says that is normal and that sometimes the period of grieving over a relationship that has been wounded or annihilated takes longer and you have to come back to it occasionally to stitch the last remaining wounds.
There are some friends who get impatient with me when I get into that funk. They always ask me what is wrong or simply tell me abruptly to get over it and move on. Some tell me to take another drink to feel better. What they are really saying is that they do not want me to rain on their parade or deal with my shit. I understand but it does not help.
I mean I look back and the first opening of my heart was to someone who lived thousands of miles away in South Africa. There were just inklings of possibilities and that person returned to his boyfriend. However, my heart actually entertained the possibility of moving on so I was grateful for the experience. It may have seemed like a silly notion to others that I would have entertained such an idea with someone who lived so far away but the heart is not limited to distance.
I have recently tried to date again and it has been interesting territory. I feel vulnerable and in a world dominated by superficiality in relationships that seem to begin and end in 24 hours, I am trying to not fall into cynicism.
When my heart broke, it was not even. My ex partner seemed so much more assured of what he wanted. I still am challenged. I know what I want. I do not want superficiality but something deeply authentic. However where to find such a thing is more of the issue.
So during those moments when tears come, I ignore the insensitive comments of some, and simply walk through the emotions , and heal the remaining wounds. I find that by facing them head on, my heart, although vulnerable, becomes more open, and with that love is possible…again.
- Superficial Relationships (momblognetwork.com)
- How to Heal Your Heart After a Breakup (socyberty.com)
- Maddisen K. Krown: Is Your Heart Breaking Or Breaking Open? (huffingtonpost.com)